love is a four letter word

"i like too many things and get all confused and hung-up running from one falling star to another till i drop." -- jack kerouac

and i picked all four of them cuz i can't figure out which to cut off. there's words saying you'll always know which one you should pick. they say the heart will always make the right choice without a second thought. so i guess the problem is with me now. it is either i have hearts more than one, or i never had one.

cuz love is just a four letter word, yet understanding it is one of the hardest things in the world. having say so, sometimes i wonder why we still long for it. maybe it is the dream, the fantasy in it that keep us going, as if as long as we never give up, we will always stand a chance for it, for the happily ever after ending which we both know it never exist.


will you hold on to it, or had you been hurt so much, you turned your back and walked away? i walked some distance, but here i am, holding still to it. cuz i don't know what more can i hold on to, had i ever give it up. it's a promise not to anyone but myself. i won't give up ♥