catch a light and you thought you had it, and the next thing you know, you lost it all. but at least we once felt the warmth in our hand. no harm trying, no? loves :)
finally graduation is over. finally. i was so nervous throughout the day that i can't eat properly either at the morning or during the lunch. been rushing here and there for the day and stress totally killed my appetite. the feeling of hunger reached me only when everything is over and i literary begged for food at the time. laugh yes laugh. hiccups started since the very beginning of the day and there's not much time for me to think. i need to come out with the solution there and then. there's no time for me to consider what if this and what if that. firm and confident in the choice and decision made, that's what i learnt from the day. it was a great compliment having feedbacks from friends that attended the ceremony telling me they enjoyed it. i mean, yea what's more important than pleasing your guests in the event you held. i'm glad at least the very basic aim is achieved. forgot who told me this, but i'm really happy when i hear ppl telling me "wahh...
this is a life-changing experience it definitely is :) joined the Project E.P.I.C. 2 for a charity event out at an Orang Asli Village in Kuala Kubu Baru. before i tell you how great it was, lemme show you what is E.P.I.C. :) E mbracing people without discrimination P ride without arrogance I ntegrity in all that we do say and think C ommitted compassion to all i am so glad that i was there that night when Madeline told us about this project, and subsequently signed up for it. the team works, the people, the sweats and sunburns. we really walked into the life of the orang asli there. those conversations we had, those happy faces of the kids, those acceptance of the residents :) the situation was actually much better than what i had anticipated. they are somehow more literate, more civilized than how i once thought orang asli's lives were. however there's not much brick houses there. most of them built their own house by wood...
"it is better to never have it at all than to hold it in your hand and the next second you know they took the whole damn thing away." for the past few years of my life, i taught myself to be easy, to not fight with people, to not ask too much about anything. i let things happen as though they should always been like that, whether to stay, to leave, to do whatever. and so, i never really fight for the one person to stay in my life; i never really fight for that one title; i never really fight for that one dress or the pair of shoes or the seat in a class. i say okay to most of everything. and the rest of it, i normally say nevermind. let things happen. let the flow decides how it goes. but sometimes i get tired of being understanding, of being nice, of being easy. and for once, for now, i want to fight for the one thing that i like. i really want to. if only i may. this time around, i want to stay, to fight for it, than to let the flow drives me away.
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