♥ jiann's talk ♥

"i wish we could go back in time, to college, to how we used to be." but we can't. from the day we stepped out from that gate, we split our way. we do not share the same social circle anymore. we work in different offices, different field, different point of view. we tried to meet up, to catch up, from weekly call and monthly meet up, to monthly call, and then, meet up only when there's birthday celebration, or sometimes, not even so. nobody wanted the distance. nobody wanted to be in distant. but somehow it happened. we don't talk as frequent. our thoughts diversed. we moved on. and then one day, we met, and those "how are you" and awkward smiles make one realize, we just can't go back anymore. funny how we promised distance won't change a thing. it changed everything.

"the time when you choose to give up is normally the moment right before you success -- unknown" few days back, when i was back in the office rushing for accounts on my own, this phrase just, happened to come true. it was slightly after two, while i was walking back to office after lunch with a cuppa on my hand, tried to get in from the side door to avoid the smokers at main. i pushed the glass door. once. twice. third push, harder. the glass door remained firm. then i thought, "fine, that's it. i'll just walk pass the bunch of smokers at main and hold my breathe till i got through". so i turned and started to walk, and that's when somebody tapped on my shoulder. i turned around, a stranger. he smiled at me and said, "push again, harder, like you really mean it." God knows how it worked. i actually had the door opened. it was never locked in the first place. it was me, gave up too soon without pushing it again with harder ef...

six months into the job, and i finally come to learn the most precious lesson about it. "work will never end. life will." look back at it, does it worth working your ass off, so hard, so negligent of everything else? few days back while i was surfing through the internet browsing through some inspirational quotes, there was this one line that caught my attention. it asks "if i take away your occupation, what else do you have?" and it struck my mind that i been indulging myself in this workaholic mood, thinking that's how it should be, while it's totally not! remember, for a family, and maybe that few friends, you are irreplaceable. but for that one job, if you quit, they can always find another person to sit in and get it done. not to say that work is not important, but think again, what is the purpose of working so hard, ignoring everything else, and few years down the road, you flash back, and realize there's nothing else but work, and you'...

One waited for too long, and one started to care too late. It is not about giving up, it is more about growing up.

当休息不再是为了走更长远的路 剩下的 只有无尽的疲惫

sometimes all it takes is a simple melody to unlock all the memories. hey there, miss me?

took a walk down the esplanade on my very last night in putrajaya. gonna miss the view, and of course, the team. till then. loves :)